Lately I've been feeling weird and I don't know why. I've been very emotional lately. Wanting to cry every moment of every day. I hate this feeling. I think it has to do with the weather tho. I love winter but enough is enough. I want Spring!!!!!!I want to wear skirts again and go on nice evening walks and take photos of Spring. I feel so trapped. It's to cold most nights to go on evening walks. I want wonderland to open so I can take carnival pictures. I just don't want to feel so trapped.

But something has brought my spirits up a lot. I've just been offered a paying job as an assistant photographer at a wedding. Which I'm amazed at and just a little frightened. My butterflies have butterflies. I'm so excited. This means I'm going to have to up my game with my photography. Part of me wants to be photographed as well. But I dont think I have what it takes. I would love if someone were to take some really great pictures of me. I havent had nice ones taken of me since Hillary did them in High School.

Anyway enough of my depressing note. I'm going to take a bath and read a smutty novel. That should help. T.T